Two weeks ago I had to take one of the principal parts in organisation of a party for men of, um, my division. I had already been slightly ill at the moment, so the actual party was a disaster for my voice. I mean, I had to talk thru all the evening and rehearse and sing two songs. So I met the following week completely and utterly voiceless; I could sing Joe Cocker AUTHENTICALLY, I mean it.
So, this week I’m trying to get my vocal back. This means more practice.
See, as I have already told you several times, there are some songs I wish I wrote before they happened. Their melody and lyrics are pretty much what I want to tell people. “In This Twilight” by Nine Inch Nails is one of them. I just want to tell you that, “all the black is really white if you believe it”. Blame my overreacting over certain things I wish I never knew for this.
Anyway - sharing my vocal practising that song just in order to check if my voice still sounds hoarse to you. I can still hear certain roughness in it, but I’m not sure if I like it or not.
“She turned his hands back and looked at the scarring across the knuckles. They were old marks and not very noticeable anymore.
“Hey, what is this?”
“I know that. From what?”
“I had tattoos. I took them off. It was a long time ago.”
“They made me take them off when I went into the army.”
She started to laugh.
“Why, what did it say, ‘Fuck the army’ or something?”
“No, nothing like that.”
“Then what? Come on, I want to know.”
“It said H-O-L-D on one hand and F-A-S-T on the other.””—
Michael Connelly, “City of Bones”.
And now look here:
I guess now you can understand why I’m looking forward to see this show.
“Hold fast to life … to everything that you have.”
FYI: my working PC (and by “working” I mean “the one that actually has most of the software installed on it, including Photoshop & SAI & all the unfinished arts”) is trying to break right now, so instead of doing sensible things like finishing paintings I am going to IT guys tomorrow to fix it.
EDIT: by “trying to break” I mean “it doesn’t boot up”, so what’s backed up is backed up (thanks to me being paranoid about that), and what is not… You see what I mean.
There are some things I want to sing as if they were my own words. Basically, that is the reason I do these vocal practice stuff: to retell something I want to be retold in my own voice.
[And yeah, this time the echoing filter is on, again.]
I just wanted the crushing weight of my end-of-the-year depression to sound a tiny bit prettier than a numb and silent text entry. Everyone, disturbed, misanthropic, lonely, exhausted - I feel you now.
So I’ve fixed my recording software (yeah, I’m a noob, I do my recordings in purely digital form via SoundForge and my Blue Snowball mic), added a pop-filter, and just tried singing something without music, extra dehissing filtering, and any additional effects on voice. Normally the filters I apply add some unnatural echo, and I just wanted to record something that sounded natural.
Here it is.
Also, the deadly rays of my purest affection go to that fabulous anon who created Dr.Steel (click here to listen to the original track). What a character he was!..
This includes letting your ideas, stories and head-canons marinate in your head on a daily basis to the point of not writing any of it down because you’re either afraid of how it will turn out or too fucking lazy to write that shit down.
The only possible present I can give to you is some image, so - gimme your ideas for art/fanart you want from me for Xmas day. It can be anything - just mind that it can take a long while to make a…
1. Five days left to enter your ideas. 2. I’m already feeling like it’s hard to choose only three, so that will be a tough task. 3. MADDY NO MADDY STOP GIVING ME IDEAS THEY ARE TOO GOOD TO BE REAL I MEAN YOU’RE THE ONLY PERSON WHO THOUGHT OF MAKING A CROSSOVER BETWEEN THE RIVERS OF LONDON AND WELCOME TO NIGHT VALE HOW IS YOUR BRAIN EVEN HUMAN
We need to petition the producers and writers of ‘Sherlock’ and ‘Agents of SHIELD’ to write a crossover episode, where the Bus has to make a trip to the UK, and Phil Coulson has to talk to Mycroft Holmes.
I sort of did that one. About a year and a half ago. In Russian. Without the Bus, but with Anthea as undercover agent who connects Coulson with Mycroft.
Never published that one, tho…
…and now I guess I need to get this draft translated into English… xD